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Trigger warning: pain, surgery, birth trauma. Smooth, natural, magical. These were the words I wanted to manifest for my first birth experience. Painful, unexpected, unprepared feels more accurate. I won't exhaust you with every detail, but I will start from the beginning. I was almost 40 weeks pregnant and I was ready to be done. Don't get me wrong, I loved being pregnant, but I was to the point where I was exhausted, uncomfortable, and ready to meet my baby. I tried the mil

For years, I’ve been dreaming of changing the world with permaculture, a term coined in the 70’s, but consisting of concepts that have been around for millennia. It promotes working with nature instead of against it. The way most people farm and garden (and live) involves combating and “defeating nature” at every turn. What a waste of energy. But hey, I love my modern comforts: heat, AC, a lack of bugs in my home. Though when it comes to how we grow food, plan our yards, or e

I experienced it all first: the trauma, the aftermath, high highs and low lows, emotions that seemed to come out of nowhere, and emotions that clearly came from triggering experiences, turbulence, struggle, ego deaths, shifting world views. A trauma like sexual assault is completely jarring. I experienced it like a death, the death of the girl I was before the assault. In fact, mourning her sudden and unexpected demise were some of the hardest parts of healing. But maybe I’ll

This may be a controversial post, but it shouldn’t be. For some reason we’ve completely demonized co-sleeping in the United States. But when we actually look at human nature, history, and the rest of the world, co-sleeping isn’t only okay, it’s normal and beneficial for baby and mom. Let’s rewind, back to my senior year of college. I’m taking a class called “Evolutionary Biology” while deeply healing my first major trauma. This class was one of my favorites because it was ext

The dreaded mastitis. I remember my first time. I woke up in the middle of the night feeling like shit; chills, headache, aches, I couldn’t sleep at all. I assumed I’d somehow caught the flu. I laid awake in misery all night. It only continued the next day. But I hadn’t been around anyone sick, hadn’t been to any crowded places where I could’ve picked it up, I hadn’t even felt any symptoms until the middle of the night. It didn’t make sense. Then I had a lightbulb moment. An